I’m practicing rage
I’m practicing pain
I sit with fear like a noble solider
“Hello”, I whisper to it.
“Hello”…I ask it “How is your mother?”
It starts to scream, and fear becomes a young toddler who only needs gentleness and affection.
“Alright, little one” I hum…
It wraps around my arms like a snake sneering it’s prey,
believing it needed to consume me
no, it just needed to become one with me, the real me…
I’ve become well practiced in sitting with fear.
June 21, 2022, Completed February 22, 2024