Practicing

I’m practicing rage I’m practicing pain I sit with fear like a noble solider “Hello”, I whisper to it. “Hello”…I ask it “How is your mother?” It starts to scream, and fear becomes a young toddler who only needs gentleness and affection. “Alright, little one” I hum… It wraps around my arms like a snake…

You fooled me

You stand before me with a smile that could fool a saint. You fooled me. Your carefully placed wording Your rationality for every fault I saw all the signs I looked the other way Believing you were who you said you were. I kept going into every commitment and decision with you blindly in hopes…

Fraudulent Victim

From my heart, a letter was written with blood and tears …somehow my heart got broken…and yours too… there were no guarantees but I swore you owed me something but I owed you everything. Sometimes love helps you find yourself, and what I found was dark, darker than any of my nightmares… I’m sorry for…

Who Made The Lamb?

INTRO: She noticed… Stood at my feet, looking up as if some explanation be forthcoming. … ACT I The emptiness. Distorted. Turned noses. ACT II Run in the fields, SHE, looked at me through the screen…searching (this had happened before?) She had expected to be betrayed again and again… ACT III HELP ME Settle me…

Tethered Home

The Quake lives in me, Shakes my home, Shatters the windows of my heart (Quakes and Quakes) Screaming “Get out!” Though, how do I get out? Isn’t this my home? Long ago, the Quake never crossed my land, my home. You would think I had the wit, the self-awareness to ignore the cries of the…

Nightmare

Dilemma, the confusion of the world, and all its ugliness. The sin, the lies, and the evil…a young girl turns to the Divine, in need of clarity, in need of support…in need of guidance, she journals, far away from the loud city…near a pond where the crickets play their violins and the birds chirp to…

Prodigal Daughter

“I once was lost but now I am found, was blind but now I see so clearly”…I gently hum this to my soul in disarray. How could I be so blind to pure gold right in front of me? How could I turn my gaze from pure sunlight? “…Was blind but now I see” How…

My Cup

My cup was full before. Or maybe it was an illusion? Perhaps, I saw the reflection of tears from my eyes in the chalice? Mistaken that for life… … My cup was full…I suppose My cup was satisfying and fulfilling. No longer is that cup thrilling. Instead, I’m left empty-handed, with a useless plastic cup…and…

Winter

I have forgotten Winter, perhaps I blotted out her memory with Summer’s temper and heat. Summer appears bright, but her scintillating aura is all-consuming; it brings to light what desires to stay hidden in the dark. She is naively jovial and does not grasp that her burning light aches the human soul. I sit and…

Nothing

You take and you take but you never give Look to me for the answers, but I do not possess them. You tell me I owe you this, you tell me I better be there. Your self-centeredness clouds your reality I owe you nothing. I owe you absolutely nothing.

The Soul

I am enough as I am. I cannot control the future. I can make good choices but life is unpredictable…and that’s not a bad thing. If I suddenly lose everything, I still have my soul. I’m doing just fine…and so are you.

The Life I Lived

I am the Wander, as Jung noted. What I thought I desired, I see with new eyes and no longer desire. What I once dreamed of was never my dream to begin with, but another’s. Coming back into my body, into myself, child like wonder, exploring the world like I never had before… Yet, those…